Tebogo Modise
The journey started in March 2016 when it was confirmed that the lump on my left breast was cancerous. In April of the same year, the first operation was over, and it was successful. I started to do chemotherapy.
In February 2018 (whilst continuing with chemotherapy) I felt another lump on my right breast which was confirmed cancerous in March and the second operation was done the following month. I then resumed chemotherapy in June 2018 until now.
The biopsy for the second operation showed that cancer has spread to the lymph nodes thus, they had to be removed. After the operation, I sadly discovered that I have developed lymphodema (on my right arm/hand which is my main hand) because of this operation (cancer was between the lymph nodes).
Scans done on me, in August 2019 confirmed that aggressive cancer in my body had spread to my ribs, left hip, spine, and the skull. In January 2020, an operation was done on my head and it was successful. Cancer has spread again to my chest skin, back and now beginning to reach the neck. I am continuing to do chemotherapy.
It has really been a truly challenging journey. I have had to bury my whole family (father, mother, sisters, and brother) and was left alone. I have learned to survive against all odds, I developed a thick skin against challenges. My support comes from my 2 nieces who are both mothers to 10months old babies and 2 nephews one is a student and the other one is working. There’s also a handful of new faithful friends who help financially.
Life is the total opposite of what it used to be, everything and everyone has changed. It’s difficult to do the simple things I used to do and I have had to daily life with an attitude I developed as I learned that, I am dealing with an aggressive kind of cancer.
I have lost my job, my family, life as it was before, and friends. However, life is going on for me. I wake up every day with an attitude of gratitude. Daily I choose to live focusing on being positive about life. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON MY LIFE DESPITE HOW PAINFUL MY BODY AND SITUATION IS. The many days of lacking financially, many sleepless nights, the many days of not having enough food to eat, and many other challenges that cancer fighters and survivors face. Fighting and surviving cancer are overwhelming nevertheless, I CHOOSE TO LIVE DESPITE WHAT LIFE THROWS AT ME.
The one thing upon which I stand unwaveringly is my faith upon God. I believe without a doubt that my God is protecting my life, that God daily envelopes my life. My life is in the palm of God’s hand. I am a Christian and my faith in God is sustains preserving me.
And when I feel better, I stand up and focus on doing things that make me happy. I exercise, go out even if I am alone, and eat out (Mugg & Bean, Spur, ..etc), attend functions or shop. Often, I do Leadership workshops, teach and preach (because I am a theologian). I am not living my life as if I owe someone something. Hence, per every opportunity, I share with people with a huge smile, about my challenges with cancer, how I am dealing with them even how I am surviving.